i really, really need someone in my life to whom i could out myself to

in all possible ways, really

i wish there could be

  • someone with whom i could share every thought that’s lingering on my mind while being sure that this person would not judge me for it
  • someone who wouldn’t get weirded out if i started going on about a girl i can’t stop thinking about
  • someone who wouldn’t hide themselves from me either, and wouldn’t be in two minds about relying on my in the same way
  • someone who wouldn’t hesitate to hug me if i told them i were on the verge of breaking down
  • someone with whom i could share my interests, fangirl with, and make mixtapes for frequently
  • someone for whom i wouldn’t be the last possible choice to go out with on a weekend
  • someone whom i could text at 2 am and still get a response
  • someone who would respect my occasional need to be alone and to not talk to anyone

i guess what i’m trying to say is, i need a really good friend